Old Stuff
March 31, 2005
121天/121 days
121 days,
I couldn't read your true heart,
it was always hid away from me.....
I couldn't clearly hear your voice,
it was always blurry and unclear.....
I couldn't catch your eye contact,
it always tried to avoid my attention.....
121 days,
you have asked me to believe,
but you couldn't keep your commitment.....
you have asked me to trust,
but you couldn't lock away your unfair criticisms.....
you have asked for recognition,
but you have forgotten it should be a give and take two-way street.....
121 days,
I got many "whys" needing answers,
Why are you neglecting my voice?
Why are you hugging someone who you just bad mouthed?
Why is so hard for you to fully commit?
Why are you treating every friendship as a possible favor?
Why do you have to be everyone's GOD MOTHER?
121 days,
will soon be ended,
damage is already done,
heart is already broken,
the distance is getting farther and farther,
the relationship is coming to the end.........
if,
after you tried so hard to create all these conflicts between people,
and hurt my personal reputation,
just so you can continue with your "mother of the land" image,
I don't mind to help.
Even,
If you can be the "God Mother" of this universe,
you still can't stop giving birth to the darkness in your deep hidden heart,
you might show your smiling face to the whole world ,
but you can't hide your loneliness and insecurity from my eyes.......
121 days,
the curtains are down and the show has ended.
you have my blessing,
to find the peace in your true heart..............
121天,
我讀不到妳的心,
它總是真真假假躲躲藏藏.....
我聽不清楚妳的聲音,
它總是似有若無時遠時近.....
我抓不到妳眼神,
它總是閃閃爍爍朦朧糢糊.....
121天,
妳要我相信妳,
卻做不到我們之間的承諾.....
妳要我放心妳,
卻守不住妳不客觀的言語.....
妳要我認同妳,
卻忘記這應是相對的付出.....
121天,
我有一些"為什麼"需要答案,
為什麼妳總聽不見我的聲音?
為什麼妳總可以擁抱妳才剛剛唾棄的人?
為什麼妳總不願意付出承諾?
為什麼妳會用友情來交換互惠?
為什麼妳總要當每一個人的母親?
121天,
就要結束了,
卻已經有了很多傷害,
卻已經造成心的破碎,
卻讓距離拉扯的更遠,
也讓關係畫上句點.........
如果,
妳傾心傾力在言語上製造的人性衝突,
可以因為我的失敗,
繼續成就妳大地之母的形象,
我樂見其成.
雖然,
妳可以當全世界的乾媽,
卻不能停止孕育妳心底深處的黑暗,
妳可以讓世界只看到妳笑臉迎人的那一面,
卻遮掩不住我看到的寂寞與不安.......
121天,
結束了也落幕了.
祝福妳,
找到自己心的平安..............
Posted to Friends/我的朋友們 by irene at 07:18 PM
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